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Saturday, February 3, 2018

I fell apart, lost it, and  was not going to take another step. I had planned my life, saw it clearly in vivid color in my mind’s eye. I  knew how many children, I was going to have  a boy, a girl, and a boy.  Well first I said ok God when I had a boy, and then another boy. I was willing to go with the flow, this was not my plan but ok. Then turned out the second boy became birth control, I decided no more children passing from this womb, it might be another boy. Wait, don’t go there I love my now men dearly. Had fun in our growing, we had more adventures than Peter Pan.  But, the second boy was a handful, a challenge to my spirit, so I decided to wave the white flag.

My plan, “my plan” I laugh at the thought of those two words. We think we are in charge of our life, making plans. Laying out blueprints of how and when things are going to happen.  Then a bump in the road happens and we fall apart. The way we pictured the event unfolding did not occur and we become upset. I hit that bump, yes, fell apart. Then not over night, no this was not like turning on a switch, or waving some magic wand. But, I was able to see a new light.  First, we need to understand we do not have that much control, there may be a heart’s desire, a vision of where we see ourselves. But, the plans have been set. Then, there are those moments, those times when God does not make us aware of the plan. Maybe, because we are being tested to see if we can handle things on the fly. Maybe we are being tested to see how flexible we can be on the run.

Why must life be a series of rigid plans and moments? "Married by 25, two children by 30." "C.E.O. by 26, married by 30." Sometimes life just doesn't line up the way your vision laid everything out. Who says that your vision was the best plan for you anyway?

The greatest vision,
the most useful plan is to walk in Faith. To follow the path set before you. Yes, the road may not be the smoothest, or the path may not be the one which leads straight to the goal. However, you will never be given more than you can handle. Those obstacles placed on the path, use them for strength building. See the struggles as reasons for praise when you keep moving and make it to the other side.

 When we see that someone or some situation is not good for us, why do we continue to fight to keep that person or situation in our lives? Yet, those who love us, those who support us, we take for granted, and give very little attention. Those situations which we do not see as worthy of our time we tend to not give our best efforts. If we take the time to look deeply at what our human minds call
“little moments” we may find those are the moments of our purpose.

Life is a Faith walk, a walk of belief in a God who holds the master plan for our lives. Walk in the knowing that things will work out the way they are meant to be. Know, God works things out for the good of those who believe, those who have faith.

So, understand that sometimes the "crap" you decided to pick up on your own needs to be kicked to the curb. The bad situations you have placed yourself in, kick rocks to those as well. If God says turn right, then turn right. Yes, you may try to look ahead and only see darkness. Turn right anyway, because you may just be staring at
a door which is about to be opened.
     Blessings,  Rev. Theresa (McKinney-Lawrence) Harris

Sunday, January 14, 2018

Take back your POWER!

Dear Shadow,

I have come to acknowledge you, to thereby remove any power you have held over me. My prayer has been that the light of God would overtake you, yes destroy you. My impression was that you were trying to destroy me. I address you today to say, I forgive you. I now understand you. Instead of praying to God for the demise of you, I pray and welcome God’s light to engulf me, so that there is no space for you. Overtake me Lord with your light, that there is no vacancy in the realm of power given to shadow any longer.

Why you may ask am I taking this thought: If I continue to despise you, to fear you, to worry about you, I am only giving you power. I am giving you the power to torment me, the power to set negativity in motion within the very atmosphere where I have lost myself. Instead I choose to find myself in the light.

So shadow know, I will always remember you. You are engraved in me. Every time I fear opening up and hide feelings in fear of upsetting someone else, I'll remember you. Every time I constantly apologize for something even if it had nothing to do with me, I'll remember you. Every time I break down during small disagreements thinking it will explode to something bigger, I'll remember you. Every time I think that I am not worthy, or that I am alone, I will remember you.

 The power I have given you has caused me to suffer at my own doing. You came to do more good than harm, probably without your knowing. So I am grateful, because of you I am stronger.  I am grateful, because of you I have found that I am worthy of more. I am grateful, because of you I have discovered that my thoughts matter, that I matter. My palate has grown, I now seek love, joy, I seek kindness, and I seek an environment of positivity. So thank you shadow for your part in my growth. Thank you for the peace I have found in acceptance.
(A collaboration of T. Harris and I. Lawrence)

Monday, January 1, 2018

hmmm... Happy New Year

As we came to the close of 2017, I viewed posts and I listened as this one and that one declared the cutting off of relationships and situations. True if there was something or someone who served no purpose in your life, let it go. However, realize relationships are what shapes who we are on this journey. Those connections are important to our existence. God did not create us to be in a vacuum, but created us to be connected to others and to him. There is someone who needs to hear your story. There is someone who needs to hear that you made it through, and how you did not give up even though you may have struggled. There is someone who will speak to your spirit words of encouragement right when you need to hear it. But this will not happen if you wrap yourself in bubble wrap and exist in fear or in a realm of seclusion.
So as you sit and contemplate resolutions of shedding pounds, and such that will probably last maybe a good 3 months. How about making 2018 a purpose to connect. A purpose to pay attention to who is being placed on your path. Make it your purpose to listen to their story, and to share your story. Make it your purpose to be blessed and be a blessing.
Think about it....
Be Blessed!

#Aspiritualuuplift #IntheStillness

Sunday, October 1, 2017

So the truth is out. How many families have lived with skeletons in their closets?
Well the bones have truly fallen out of the closet. What? Racism still exists didn't you know. Did you really feel that things had changed? Did you really feel that racism had just curled up and died? No pudding it is alive and probably living on your street, working with you on your job. I once worked for a company where the big "R" was flowing like milk and honey. Each year at the holiday party I had to listen to  a monologue of how we are all one family, we are all the same. I was the only one working there of color. But every year at the party where we would get our bonus's I had to endure this conversation.  I would laugh and say to myself, if we were all the same and all family you would not be repeating this same speech to me every year.
Just because it has not been placed in your face up on neon lights, you let yourself think we were passed that season. No, not the case. Listen "R" will smile at you, will take you to lunch, will joke with you. You meet it on the streets, in the grocery stores, restaurants, and shopping malls.
Funny, that a favorite past-time of the world, "football" would shake those bones out of the closet. Those bones would fall from the highest level not just from those low spots. Well it is out there, that is right there is an elephant in the room now what? 
Racism, is taught behavior, we are not born with it in us. When little children come to school and call a classmate Nigger, they had to learn that just as they learned , "momma" and "dada". Taught behavior, and now this taught behavior is no longer a secret,  so where does it stop. 
We were all created from love, the love of God. Created in God's image. We have all been mandated to love each other as we love ourselves. So as spoken above the picture, let light of reality speak to your spirit. The love of God can unite people. Love of life will provide the words to say to speak to hate, to racism, to the wrongs of the world.
The closet door is wide open now, so recognize it when you see it in the light, speak light to it, because it is no longer in the dark.

Monday, September 25, 2017

Drum of the Heart - Aspiritualuplift Ministry: We may bend, but we will not break...

Drum of the Heart - Aspiritualuplift Ministry: We may bend, but we will not break...: A gift from me to you, While we were in Hawaii, I came upon this tree. Look how the trunk split off. The roots remain strong keeping ...

We may bend, but we will not break...

A gift from me to you,

While we were in Hawaii, I came upon this tree. Look how the trunk split off. The roots remain strong keeping life flowing through the tree. Though this tree bends, it does not break. The tree continues to grow, with life and strength. I pray though moments in life may bring us to bend, keeping our faith as strong roots we will not break. We are never given more than we can handle.

 Taking off the Mask…

Oh the light is getting dim.

The hope at the end of the tunnel seems too hard to reach.

The light is getting dim.

Drained and tired, cup empty.

No seminar or motivational speaker can ignite this light which is dim.

What words of wisdom what grand advice?

Day in day out running on the treadmill of life

only to remain in the same spot.

No sandy beaches or grand horizons am I seeing right now.

The light dim, but you do not want to hear about my despair,

you do not want to know of my heartache.

Joy is the mask you want me to wear.

Are we what people see?

Is that all there really is, making sure we put on a grand show.

Who are we here to please?

Day in day out running on the treadmill of life getting nowhere.

Do you really know me?

Could you handle what goes on in my head?

The complexities, the realities, the questions, the real.

I am more than a gentle breeze on a summer day,

more than a perfect orange sunset.

I am more than the peace you find in the early morning when the birds wake, I am more

I am tired, I am weak, I am joy, I am strong, I am more

Tears, sorrow, love, yearning, quiet, loud, sexy, sadness and beauty.

Complexity is what I am and more.

‘In The Stillness…Quiet Moments of A’Ha Reflection

By, T. McKinney-Lawrence

Remember We May Bend, but We Will Not Break